So worn out from this

[Redfacegirl]

Being alive 15 years has been enough for me. I've never thought death would sound so calming. I'm tired every second I feel so worn out from my face being bright red all day. I need a break. It's only been 9 months and everyone who has been dealing with rosacea or any skin problem for years you guys all amaze me. I love hearing success stories they make me have hope but also make me feel so sad that I'm stuck like this. I wish I could go back 9 months ago and look in the mirror. I would take back everytime I obsessed over just a couple pimples. I can't even remember what I use to look like. Before the redness and this depression. I want to be happy soo badly but rosacea is making sure I don't. I feel horrible because other people in the world have it so much worse. But I just can't keep doing this every single day. Everyday I can't wait til I get to go to sleep again. I love sleep because its the only time I am happy. The only time I don't have rosacea. The only time I can actually look at myself. The only time I am calm and not thinking about my rosacea or seb derm.

[fanny]

Hi
I totally relate, that is how I was before taking antibiotics. Since taking them I no longer have flushing or a bright red inflamed face. Keep going back to the doctor until you get something that works.
Take care
Fanny

[fanny]

PS If you are having suicidal thoughts please reach out to a friend, counsellor, family member or someone professional-PLEASE

[Singapuracat]

Hi

As Fanny said, keep with the treatment you have been prescribed, but if you are finding that it isn't working then you need to go back to your doctor and try other options.

There are loads of great resources on this site some of which may also help you.

If you are feeling like taking your own life, please please talk to somebody about it. Yes there will probably be always somebody 'worse' but that really doesn't matter because it is how any condition such as rosacea affects you and makes you feel.

If you can talk to a trusted family member or friends about how you feel and who can help support you as well.

[fanny]

Great advice and welcome singapuracat!
Best wishes
Fanny

[royS]

i do feel your pain , i am in the same situation